Monday 8 July 2013
Pretty Little Scam
Thursday 27 June 2013
You Jump I Jump
Once upon a time I was pretty much afraid of everything. I was afraid of heights, the dark, fast moving objects (this includes rollercoasters of course), and being home alone. It was actually quite ridiculous now that I come to think of it .. My fear got in the way of a lot of opportunities I had in life and I grew frustrated.
It’s easy to get used to your comfort zone and honestly why would you step out of everything that feels safe and familiar? – that’s what I always thought, until I took a leap of faith.
One day I was stuck in my driver’s car in the scorching heat of summer in the insane traffic of Kuwait and I had just finished my summer engineering course at Kuwait University. And I decided that my life needed a kick. A hard one.
I was unhappy, I was frustrated, I was depressed because my life was not going the way I had planned or hoped and to be honest most of it was because I wasn’t sure what I wanted. In short, it didn’t feel like my life at all.
I kept remembering a sentence by philosophy professor had repeated several times that day .. and that is that if you want something you never had, you must do something you never did.
So after a year and a half of dragging myself around the engineering program, I quit. It wasn’t easy, especially on my parents. But I persevered. I decided to jump into something even if I was scared to death and uncertain of. And it turned out to be one of the best choices I ever made.
From then on I learnt to trust my gut, because more often than not, my gut was spot on. Sadly sometimes I had ignored it, only to realize later that I shouldn’t have.
Recently I had to trust my gut on something far greater than my career path. I had to know if I was ready to say “I do”. And I did. Even though my husband and I are complete opposites, I trusted my gut and I jumped.
Now many people (including myself in the past) have the misconception that the perfect couple is one that is in in perfect sync, have similar interests and similar ways of thinking. I discovered that it could be the opposite.. Because amongst many things, my husband craves the thrill of everything that scares me bloodless.
So this time I decided I was going to swallow and jump anyway no matter how scared I am because there is a whole world out there and many things to do and I will never learn my limits unless I try to reach as far as I could.
On our honeymoon I rode on the back of his motorcycle for hours in the rain and once I decided to block out my fear I realized that the thrill was worth it. You feel free and unbounded. From then on I went to Sharm ElSheikh and I stopped at nothing. From parachuting to jumping off yatchs and snorkeling in the depths of the sea, and I discovered that life starts at the end of your comfort zone.
The point isn’t to go sign yourself up for a sky diving course. The point is that we fear what we do not know and new things scare us until we take them on. Sometimes the scariest things we challenge ourselves to do turn out to be the best things we ever did. I refuse to believe that opportunities are thrown our way for us to ignore them.
I’m going to make a list from now on to try new things every once in a while to keep life interesting; how will I know what I like and what I don’t unless I try?
So go ahead. Live a little.
Close your eyes and jump.